I'm not in

I'm not in, yet.

I did enjoy so much but if I'd never tried, I wouldn't realise that I'm not really into it, though I always think I really need it. Of course from every angle, I really need it.

Somehow, something's wrong. Or something in my body, is de-activated.

God gave me choices. At the same time, I was shown the future. I may be stuck into the worldly desires and worries and I am going to screw up again.

I'm into it. But I'm not really in. This feeling is very abstract but I am sure it is there. It's too heavy to find out the truth.

I'm in a box. There's no one who's coming to pull me out. Or I'm not going anywhere.

Feeling ill. Something is wrong.