Paradoxical thought

After swimming, I had been sitting in the nearby Starbucks for the whole afternoon, started looking at those sample materials of further study. It is a decision of great commitment to make this year. Should I do, or should I not?

Just noticed it was about time for final exam and that is why Starbucks was filled up by youngsters. What does exam do to our future?

Looking out at the withered tress through the glass and pondering some stuff. It has been a paradoxical thought in my head for long and there is no definitive answer. The Y shape pathway ahead is blurred now but I am still standing there without a clue. No guarantee of anything better off or worse off with uncountable number of options. It would be good if there would be no options, or even the first step was never existed in the beginning, as I cannot even say I like or I do not like it.

So maybe this decision can help me out a bit to walk for a little while longer. After all I submitted this to His own plan and believe that I will be guided all the way.