Inspired by Pon Bronson and I have never pondered about this question so seriously until now.
What do I want to do with my life? The same question again. To guide myself to the ultimate answer, first of all, I want to make my life more meaningful.
I am feeling so anxious when I see people around me seem not realizing the same question with me. Of coz I know not everybody is carrying this topic on his lips, the feeling of thinking about this question all by myself is kind of lonesome. Why people just stick onto this job as if it is the ultimate meaning of their lives? Definitely it is not my choice.
I thank God for giving me a light when I was lost on my way. This job did save me from frustration. After the realistic problem was solved, I was spared with much more time to think about my life in a spiritual way. Then I realized that money or power or social status are all not what I want. I feel like I am guided by the spirit in figuring out the exit. I am so eager to find it out.
Last night Takeshi invited me the idea of missionary. Frankly I think I am a weak human who don't have good faith. I do not aim at doing something great, I don't want to be superman, I just want to do something that can help people, help this world. Even being a gardener, when I plant a tiny little flower, I make this world more beautiful. That is the what current job can never satisfy me. To an extreme I doubt if my work is a bit excessive to our lives, we do not necessarily need an auditor to make our lives better.
Takeshi said I need to find someone who shares the same thought with me. Yes, I need some support. I hope it would be the future you who is yet to come.
I know it takes time for me to figure out my way clearly. Definitely I do not want to become that desperate rich young man who came to Jesus for an answer. Neither do I want to be the man who cannot pass through the eye of a needle which even a camel can.
Guid me always, my Lord. I rely on you.
1 comment:
Hey guy,
To make life more meaningful doesn't mean you must work in the NGO or being the leader to flight for sth.
It depends on how is your life with god. Being an auditor, you monitor the rich people to pay what they need to pay. Being a colleauges, you can share your faith and show caring to others. Being a citizen, you can give a hand to a stranger. Actually, you are also a gardener to watering flowers around you!
What you are doing is important in his eyes.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
Just be patient! Pray and listen!
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