Friday, December 16, 2005

Mark to market

This is a familar term to most of my friends. It is the age of mark-to-market. Everything has to be revaluate/ devaluate annually in accordance with the fair value. No more cost basis.

Once I think I have to be confident in the option I chose, no matter I am the only one. I have to convince myself and people around me that it's a good choice. From time to time, frankly speaking I really doubt it and I try to evaluate my situation and wonder what I would be doing if this option had not been chosen. what I spent to make my decision workable is sunk cost, what I have been so determined to do is on 'cost basis', no longer applicable due to the impact of highs and lows. When comparing to what I had before I have no gain no loss, no revaluation reserve, though experience is accumulating, I still don't possess the ability to get what I want, or maybe I still don't know what I actually want. The 'market' reveals the truth.

So it's time to redetermine my destination.

If going any further possibly won't be better off, so why not returning back? Reset to zero, it's not the first trial. Though the cost is high, I think I can still bear. No physical pain at all.

Perhaps I lost the momentum to move on.

Leaving, is for coming back. Really?


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1 comment:

P. Birdie said...

Our familiar MTM is on sth kind of homogenous, sth that can be measured in monetary terms, but I think life is not one of those ‘sth’.

There is no ‘active market’, no ‘objective basis’ for determining the ‘fair value’ of one’s life, and no one is qualified in evaluating one’s life apart from their own selves.

Just act as your heart direct you to, but learn not to regret or suspect your decision.